I was alone on the ledge now; the others had moved on to a different jumping spot that was supposedly higher and more daunting. I could hear their laughter and French-accented woohooery in the near distance, and again as the voices echoed off of the other side of the valley. Looking off to the right, I could see the tiny figures of people enjoying themselves on a small beach. Suddenly I became paranoid that they were watching me hesitate at the ledge. I scanned them for saracastic waving or cheering, but they appeared not to notice me. To be on the safe side, I tried to lean casually against the rockface behind me. If they did happen to look over, all they would see was a disaffected man standing on a cliff--one who clearly had more pressing matters to attend to than jumping off of it. I was in my underwear.
Had I been a little more mentally agile, I would have observed to myself that this was a metaphorically loaded moment indeed: there were cliffs and leaps and wavering courage and unknown depths, all coming in the first weeks after quitting my job, selling my things, and travelling the world. Instead, though, I stared sadly at a distant plant.
After some time, the drone of taunting and whooping once again grew nearer, until, Little-Rascal-like, they were back amongst the ledges and shrubs that surrounded me, wet and shivering and passing fresh beers all around.
I turned to them and said, "I need courage. If you all count to three, though, I'll jump. Will you count for me?" A happy flurry nods and yeses.
They counted, and I lept--with a barely audible "Mon dieu!" at the apex.
After some time, the drone of taunting and whooping once again grew nearer, until, Little-Rascal-like, they were back amongst the ledges and shrubs that surrounded me, wet and shivering and passing fresh beers all around.
I turned to them and said, "I need courage. If you all count to three, though, I'll jump. Will you count for me?" A happy flurry nods and yeses.
They counted, and I lept--with a barely audible "Mon dieu!" at the apex.